Trust Me Ive Got This

While growing up I struggled immensely with my sexuality and faith. I grew up in church, went to a Christian university, but desired a homosexual lifestyle; I grew up as a Christian but lived divided in my heart. I walked away from God for years because I wanted what felt good and right to me. I was searching for satisfaction in the desires of my heart and it wasn’t until I hit rock bottom that I turned fully to God to fulfill that desire. When God asked me why I wasn’t turning to Him as my full source of satisfaction, I told Him, “Trust me, I’ve got this.” It was absurd and arrogant, but a profound insight into the true reality of where my soul stood. I wanted love and acceptance, but the gratification that these things brought was never enough to appease my thirsting soul. While I was running from God, He never stopped pursuing me. He just wanted my heart. He wanted to show me that He was everything I was looking for and more. God doesn’t stop caring for us and will always be there when we realize this world isn’t enough.